a night with mum in an A class ward.

we din expect her to be warded. got worried when sis msged to tell me abt it.

well, i was lookin forward to mtg my girl when i told her tt ive got to shorten the mtg duration. to my dismay, she rejected my attempts to meet her.

30 mins is a significant amount of time to me, come to think of it, all i needed was a comforting hug to ease me. however 30 mins was not worth mtg up for, for her.

im prob just exhausted... honestly, im feeling a lil more than just tt...

i just need some time alone... all maybe perhaps i am alone...

its gd watching mummy slping soundly while i blog away. i could sense her reluctant eyes when we were abt to leave. sis wasnt keen to say, she had always prefer her purple sheets, dad has got coaching tml morning, so i offered to keep mummy dearest company. my mum has shrunk in size over what has happened recently...i know tt she is strong but shell always be tt timid lil mummy. its just tt shes afraid to slp alone in this huge A ward.
well, its gd to know tt mum is alright coz e last time she was in e hosp, i cldnt stop worryin...

i love my mummy! shes my dads darling wife, my sis's wardrobe sis/gossip partner and my strong willed/noble mummy.

sch is out for me tml, will be too tired. i long for a gd deep comfy slp. i need one... a break... its not easy trying to balance everything. at times ill ask y... y me but e tot of someone worse out there, e.g:ethopia, pakistan quake victims, tsunami victims, ppl iraq, northern sri lanka, e disabled, aids victims, orphans, e sick n ...

im so much luckier. living in contentment is gd enough for me.

im just blabbering on in coherently in e armchair, my 'bed' for tonight.

oh yea, thnk u wendy, joyce, fab n josh for e entertaining pool game. it made my day better. :>

i dont wanna think no more. ur actions confuses me. i wanna be void of all feelings but i cant... how i wished i had met u, it wld have... well, i guess there is no better time to test my independence thn now.

im feeling much better aft typing everything out. -grins (that was real).
im fine. i understand. i mean it. however, i still long for u in my arms.
they may not be strong but i hope tt theyre gd enough for u.

p.s: my mum is snoring now. hehe.

oh well, ill find something else to do. much love to my p900 for enabling me to blog.

ill be back peepz!

love, jm